Oh poor you, I lost my boy 6 months ago, and then lost the will to ride, its taken all this time for me to feel like I can enjoy horses again. I stil miss him and your post made me cry again... but it does get better accept it is a very slow process to heal..
Somewhere in tine's own space
There must be some sweet pastured place
Where creeks sing on and tall trees grow
Some paradise where horses go
For by the love that guides my pen
I know great horses live again.