I’m currently 19 years old and I’m about to turn 20 in December. I’ve always had a passion for horses and I plan on going to transfer to a college out of state to study Equine science. I’ve been riding in multiple stables in NYC since I was 14-16 and it’s been my dream to jump as well as lease a horse in the future in order to learn about horsemanship. The first barn I went to is a therapeutic riding stable (GallopNYC) and I understand their services are limited, however I began to learn how to canter 4 years after riding there. After that there were new instructors and although I told them I had experience, they would teach me the basics of riding. I went to another stable known as Jamaica Bay Riding Center as their services were not as limited. I’ve gone to about 6 lessons there, but the 5 out of the 6 times I’ve been there, the instructors sat on the fence and were uninterested in giving me any tips or instruction. The rings are also very crowded and you are unable to hear anything as there are about 5-7 other riders and instructors in the ring. I ended up trying one more time to go to a stable known as Bronx Equestrian Stable and the instructor berated me for my riding skills and told me that I more or less sucked at riding. I love getting constructive criticism however I took this to be quite insulting. I get really anxious and after that experience I really dreaded going to lessons. I wanted to go to a summer camp in order to learn how to tack and I thought about improving my skills through these sessions but I think I’m too old for it as I haven’t found any camps that allow individuals above 16 years old. I’m beyond grateful for getting the opportunities for these lessons, so my question is, should I give up riding until I can move to another state to find better riding stables or should I continue my search for a stable that better suits my needs in NYC or around one of the five boroughs. I’m sorry if this sounds a bit pathetic, I’ve just always loved horses and the idea of riding because there’s no greater feeling than being on a horse or near one so I found all of this to be disheartening. Thanks in advance, I apologize if I made any grammatical errors.