Hi, everyone I'm new here hoping someone can help, I have a loan pony 7y/o backed last year mainly hacked she's brill in all traffic not particularly spooky at all, green in the school mainly in canter, walk, trot fine but I am scared stiff I'd not been riding for a while up until getting her but now I can't get on managed 2/3 times a walk around in the school and a very brief hack out no issues on her part this was about a month ago but now I cannot bring myself to get on at all and to scared to admit things are this bad and ask for help I'm embarrassed that I cannot ride my pony I really don't know what to do .