I rode for about a year in my 20s, and started again 6 months ago in my 40s. It’s so much harder this time around, in every way. My body is not in as good of shape, but I’m also much more fearful. My instructor is so patient, and I am very grateful. But sometimes I feel like I’m going backwards. My ankles were sore at my last lesson, so she had me drop my stirrups. I suddenly felt so out of balance without my “training wheels”, and started trembling with fear of falling off. I was never in any danger, the horse never went above a walk. Why am I so scared all the time? And how do I get over this?