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PatchyPony
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I posted on Monday saying how rubbish I felt as Tally wouldnt catch and Id left her out. Finally convinced myself Id have a better day on tuesday..... afterall, having spent the night out she'd be desperate to see me right? I didnt post yesterday as I was too upset....
Tuesday dawned and went and bought a gorgeous sheepskin lined numnah and new brushing boots for madam, and went off to the yard.
Went into the field to poo pick first and made no attmept to catch or approach her even. I was really disheartened as she stood and glowered at me the whole time. I then came back with a bucket and spent over an hour attempting to get her.... eventually I did, but believe me if looks could kill!!
Once I got her in she just wasnt right...... wouldnt stand, more bargy than ever before, couldnt even groom her. She tried to bite my face and eventually with her swinging her bum round all the time I felt so unsafe I had to get out of the stable Not once did she put her ears forward the whole time I was getting 'evils' I gave up any ideas I had of riding, so decided I must do 'something' with her and took her into the school with the intention of doing some ground work and lunging. The school is nice and safe, all enclosed,big tall fence and secure. She went straight into a fast trot and to be honest i cant even really remember exactly what happened.... except she ended up getting away from me and barging at the gate. 5ft solid wooden gate. And then she just took a step back and JUMPED!` It wasnt clean... she got stuck half way over and ended up sort of dragging/hanging from a back leg!! She got hreself free and how I managed to catch her i dont know. The next 1/2 hour is a blur. I was terified she had hurt herself but she wouldnt let me check - there was nothing obvious though. I managed to get her rug on and turn her out again. Then just stood and cried like a right wally in the field
I came home at an all time low. Any bond I thought i was getting/had with her had gone...... all her trust in me had gone.... believe me, I couldnt have felt any worse. And I know - I probably did everything wrong and I probably caused it all and I let that happen to her - she could have broken a leg . I felt so low I put her up for sale. I thought a more experienced home is what she needs... and she doesnt want me near her.
I hardly slept last night.... YO checked her this morning and she is sound, thank God. then the phone calls started this morning about her and thats when it hit me. Thats MY girlie, my princess...... NO ONE elses and I love her and I couldnt bear listening the voicemails asking about her
So I did some soul searching. I know nothing of her background, but we have ascertained she is a very stressed and probabaly rough handled/beaten wee mare who hasnt known love and consistency - everything was going fine really til i moved yards 3 weeks ago..... and the weekend i moved yards I had to leave tally on full livery as i was away at a family 'do'. When I came back she didnt want to know me i couldnt catch her. Since then , coupled with the stress of moving, she's been more argumentative, bargy and STRESSED! Ive had different advice from every angle and then we had that horrible hack where in her head I led her into a pack of wolves and bailed out the side door leaving her to be chased!! So is it understandable she has lost trust in me? I think maybe it is! Also Ive been inconsistent in my approach and have got scared of her being argumnetative and probably reacted not calmly enough to put her in her place without scaring her.
My YO is going to lunge her for me tomorrow and I have my RI coming on Fri so that is something,,,,,,,,,
Today after work I went to her field with a bucket and stood in the dark and pouring rain and didnt say a word. ................ she came over and ate as I held the bucket. She let me touch her all over..... and she let me rub her face, and put my arms round her neck and kiss her cheek........ and im embarrassed to say I stood in the field and cried again! But for different reasons this time.... I walked away and left her and she followed me to the gate and watched me with her ears forward. That has given me all the motivation I needed to pull myself together and stop being a silly c** I love my ponio
If anyone actually reads all this well done! Its helped just to get it all off my chest!
Tuesday dawned and went and bought a gorgeous sheepskin lined numnah and new brushing boots for madam, and went off to the yard.
Went into the field to poo pick first and made no attmept to catch or approach her even. I was really disheartened as she stood and glowered at me the whole time. I then came back with a bucket and spent over an hour attempting to get her.... eventually I did, but believe me if looks could kill!!
Once I got her in she just wasnt right...... wouldnt stand, more bargy than ever before, couldnt even groom her. She tried to bite my face and eventually with her swinging her bum round all the time I felt so unsafe I had to get out of the stable Not once did she put her ears forward the whole time I was getting 'evils' I gave up any ideas I had of riding, so decided I must do 'something' with her and took her into the school with the intention of doing some ground work and lunging. The school is nice and safe, all enclosed,big tall fence and secure. She went straight into a fast trot and to be honest i cant even really remember exactly what happened.... except she ended up getting away from me and barging at the gate. 5ft solid wooden gate. And then she just took a step back and JUMPED!` It wasnt clean... she got stuck half way over and ended up sort of dragging/hanging from a back leg!! She got hreself free and how I managed to catch her i dont know. The next 1/2 hour is a blur. I was terified she had hurt herself but she wouldnt let me check - there was nothing obvious though. I managed to get her rug on and turn her out again. Then just stood and cried like a right wally in the field
I came home at an all time low. Any bond I thought i was getting/had with her had gone...... all her trust in me had gone.... believe me, I couldnt have felt any worse. And I know - I probably did everything wrong and I probably caused it all and I let that happen to her - she could have broken a leg . I felt so low I put her up for sale. I thought a more experienced home is what she needs... and she doesnt want me near her.
I hardly slept last night.... YO checked her this morning and she is sound, thank God. then the phone calls started this morning about her and thats when it hit me. Thats MY girlie, my princess...... NO ONE elses and I love her and I couldnt bear listening the voicemails asking about her
So I did some soul searching. I know nothing of her background, but we have ascertained she is a very stressed and probabaly rough handled/beaten wee mare who hasnt known love and consistency - everything was going fine really til i moved yards 3 weeks ago..... and the weekend i moved yards I had to leave tally on full livery as i was away at a family 'do'. When I came back she didnt want to know me i couldnt catch her. Since then , coupled with the stress of moving, she's been more argumentative, bargy and STRESSED! Ive had different advice from every angle and then we had that horrible hack where in her head I led her into a pack of wolves and bailed out the side door leaving her to be chased!! So is it understandable she has lost trust in me? I think maybe it is! Also Ive been inconsistent in my approach and have got scared of her being argumnetative and probably reacted not calmly enough to put her in her place without scaring her.
My YO is going to lunge her for me tomorrow and I have my RI coming on Fri so that is something,,,,,,,,,
Today after work I went to her field with a bucket and stood in the dark and pouring rain and didnt say a word. ................ she came over and ate as I held the bucket. She let me touch her all over..... and she let me rub her face, and put my arms round her neck and kiss her cheek........ and im embarrassed to say I stood in the field and cried again! But for different reasons this time.... I walked away and left her and she followed me to the gate and watched me with her ears forward. That has given me all the motivation I needed to pull myself together and stop being a silly c** I love my ponio
If anyone actually reads all this well done! Its helped just to get it all off my chest!
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