i do not know what to do and am desperate for any insight at all.
me and katie are struggling massively.
culmilating iin me moving out last night temorarily pending can solve issues.
i will try to be concise and clear.
my diagnosis is emotionally unstable personality disorder, borderline type.
i am ment to be on citalopram but it has had little effect on me other then impotence so was a mutual decison between me and katie to stop it.
my main problems are i cannot read people, cannot interpret emotions or problems, over reaction, short tempered, frustration etc ..
katie sums it up in arrogant thingy.
she feels i have no respect for her and am bullying.
i am not aware of this and is not my intention.
i admitt i struggle massively and am very defensive and can get very argumentative and hold the high ground.
katie is equally arumentative.
i saw things that i dont mean or try ot explain how i am feeling but cannot express it properly and just upset katie or offend.
i am under local mental health team however thye are useless.
i have not seen anyone in months despite ringingfor appointments half a dozen times with the promise of a return phone call.
i went through pals service and they sent someone out to assess my needs and what thye could do, 2 weeks later they had forgotten her report so sent her again.
this was 2 -3 weeks ago now and was promised na update and some actions, none of which have occurred.
i phone yesteday and she reurned my call today but there was no appointment on the system so they foun one for the 22 november which is really useless given i am currently losing everything.
so i hung up in frustration, stupid i know but just hitting a wall it seems.
half the problem is i cannot work full time, perhaps not even part time but all i want is to hold a job and be the ideal husband/father figure.
but currently at home mostly, i am trying to go through voluntary work but finding it hard to get anything locally that is more then a coupple hours a week so far.
currently help at scouts monday night.
i was ment to ask in charity shpsyesterday but was stressful so did not but sent a few emails but katie see this as a cop out.
i have no idea what to do now, i know therapy would help but i never get this as deemed unsuitabl and antidepressants dont really help as its not depression thats the major problem.
i have been on various meds over the years but none really seem to help with my emotionally state or interpersonal problems.
i know this is not the best forum but i am at the end of the road and if cannot sort myself out then i dont know what i will do other then it wont be positive.
me and katie are struggling massively.
culmilating iin me moving out last night temorarily pending can solve issues.
i will try to be concise and clear.
my diagnosis is emotionally unstable personality disorder, borderline type.
i am ment to be on citalopram but it has had little effect on me other then impotence so was a mutual decison between me and katie to stop it.
my main problems are i cannot read people, cannot interpret emotions or problems, over reaction, short tempered, frustration etc ..
katie sums it up in arrogant thingy.
she feels i have no respect for her and am bullying.
i am not aware of this and is not my intention.
i admitt i struggle massively and am very defensive and can get very argumentative and hold the high ground.
katie is equally arumentative.
i saw things that i dont mean or try ot explain how i am feeling but cannot express it properly and just upset katie or offend.
i am under local mental health team however thye are useless.
i have not seen anyone in months despite ringingfor appointments half a dozen times with the promise of a return phone call.
i went through pals service and they sent someone out to assess my needs and what thye could do, 2 weeks later they had forgotten her report so sent her again.
this was 2 -3 weeks ago now and was promised na update and some actions, none of which have occurred.
i phone yesteday and she reurned my call today but there was no appointment on the system so they foun one for the 22 november which is really useless given i am currently losing everything.
so i hung up in frustration, stupid i know but just hitting a wall it seems.
half the problem is i cannot work full time, perhaps not even part time but all i want is to hold a job and be the ideal husband/father figure.
but currently at home mostly, i am trying to go through voluntary work but finding it hard to get anything locally that is more then a coupple hours a week so far.
currently help at scouts monday night.
i was ment to ask in charity shpsyesterday but was stressful so did not but sent a few emails but katie see this as a cop out.
i have no idea what to do now, i know therapy would help but i never get this as deemed unsuitabl and antidepressants dont really help as its not depression thats the major problem.
i have been on various meds over the years but none really seem to help with my emotionally state or interpersonal problems.
i know this is not the best forum but i am at the end of the road and if cannot sort myself out then i dont know what i will do other then it wont be positive.