Ok.I’m an experienced, not very good, physically compromised, dedicated 50 yo rider. I bought a new horse recently after losing a very, very special horse suddenly earlier this year. We still have a lot of COVID lockdowns where I am. We have basically been lockdown since the day i bought my new horse. I’ve been trying to work with him with no instruction, no other eyes on the ground. Trying to:muddle through. Trying to make the right decisions but failing. I’ve been bucked off, cracked ribs, I’ve lost confidence. Saddle fit, dentist, body work tells me the horse has no physical issue. So it must be me. Feeling very, very down and not being able to get past this feeling. Quickly the horse seems to have examined me and decided I’m rubbish. I cannot have lessons due to lockdown. Can anyone relate?