I have recently had to start working 5 mornings a week and my bestest hacking bud can only ride mornings, so it's solo or nothing most of the time now :unsure:
I have tried to tell myself this is a good opportunity to have some 'me and daisy time' and have been out round the (still) scary farm a few times. When I get back I think "phew" whereas when I get back from a hack with a mate I feel exhilarated.
Anyhow this afternoon I had planned a quick plod round the farm thinking the more I do this the easier it's going to get, but I felt so tired and kept looking for other things to do and then texted bestest hacking bud to tell her I was feeling down and so tired and that my extra hours at work were not beneficial to my horsey hobby. She replied that she had felt the same that morning as she had to go out alone as I was at work, she encouraged me to go out, said I would feel better once I'd done it :unsure:
I had deliberated so long it was getting late but decided to go for it and buddy was right I felt so much better after, I wasn't tired at all when I got back, a bit of a "phew" but also a bit of exhilaration, it was IMO my lack of confidence trying to persuade me not to do it and lying to me, telling me I was tired
Bloomin head, plays havoc with the riding, why does our confidence have to be so fragile, or is it just my nutty noddle?
I have tried to tell myself this is a good opportunity to have some 'me and daisy time' and have been out round the (still) scary farm a few times. When I get back I think "phew" whereas when I get back from a hack with a mate I feel exhilarated.
Anyhow this afternoon I had planned a quick plod round the farm thinking the more I do this the easier it's going to get, but I felt so tired and kept looking for other things to do and then texted bestest hacking bud to tell her I was feeling down and so tired and that my extra hours at work were not beneficial to my horsey hobby. She replied that she had felt the same that morning as she had to go out alone as I was at work, she encouraged me to go out, said I would feel better once I'd done it :unsure:
I had deliberated so long it was getting late but decided to go for it and buddy was right I felt so much better after, I wasn't tired at all when I got back, a bit of a "phew" but also a bit of exhilaration, it was IMO my lack of confidence trying to persuade me not to do it and lying to me, telling me I was tired
Bloomin head, plays havoc with the riding, why does our confidence have to be so fragile, or is it just my nutty noddle?