Well its been a while, havent been on here much lately tbh :redface: Life has been a bit hetic the past few months so i havent had chance to come on here and keep you all updated. Sorrrry :angel:
Not sure where to start, this might be a long one so bear with me :giggle: there will be pics so it will be worth it teehee!
So ill start with Finnley....
We have been out and about a fair amount in our lorry which i am really enjoying. I wish i'd done it sooner tbf its a great luxery to have. Although saying that i have been pushing us both too far since buying it. I did my usual 'Vicki' thing and decided i must 'make the most' of it incase it gets taken away from me (Insecure much :unsure
so i ignored OH's advice to take things s-l-o-w-l-y i just made sure we went out in it every weekend. I think this got a bit to much for me & Finn. My Anxiety problems spiralled out of control and i just felt so low & pressured. Finn was getting so used to me getting on and then having a good old razz around jumps or fun rides that all his schooling went out the window which has made me loose some confidance in myself & him.
I ended up having to go to the doctors after having my anxiety got really bad, starting to have panic attacks etc the final straw was having a melt down at work and been taken to the docs by my OH's dad (we work together) she prescirbed me some tablets to help and ordered me to rest for a while. So i did nothing for 3 days and realised i had just been pushing myself way way way to far, doing things that i wasnt quite ready to do. 2 Weeks on and i do feel better, i know my mistakes and i AM going to just chill and take things slow in all ascpects of my life now. I dont think the tablets are helping at all though so i think im going to stop those, ive had constant upset stomach with them the past 2 weeks and havent been able to eat properly so am loosing weight rapidly. My size 6 jeans are no hanging off my hips which are pretuding out in a disgusting way.
Anyway thats enough doom & gloomy stuff i will get on with some of the lovely things ive done recently....
Not sure if all of you have seen this vid so i'll show it again....
We went to a SJ training evening in Derbyshire, that was great although falling off wasnt hehe... Knocked my confidance slightly but not too badly...
http://youtu.be/HVCNWROSu30
I didnt chuck my mom off....honest...
Next Jumping outing was a SJ evening comp which was a total disaster. It knocked my confidance and put me off going to any comps again tbh. It was named Mini/Diddy Showjumping, first class was 45cm so i though great that will be a nice little hieght to go round. Got there, warmed up feeling calm & confidant although warm up annoyed me because all the people on there 16h hunter types kept cantering into us. Then it was my turn, got into the ring and saw the hieght of the jumps! I was like WHAT!? they were a full up 2'6-'2'9 at least. I pretty much gave in even before we started to be honest, i just did not want to even try. We managed to do the first jump with 2 refusals and then another refusal at the second so was eliminated. I think one person managed to do a complete clear round, lots of young girls came off and ended up in tears they were just way to high! Then my friend wanted to do the very last class so we had to wait for 3hr 45mins (It was so dis organised it was untrue!) the class was supposed to be 2'6-2'9 and they ended up being HUGE like well over 3'3. My poor friend was the only pony competitor in the class and she ended up getting eliminated too. I got home @ 11.00pm and was not a happy bunny at all.
Looking Miserable lol!....
Next Day out was clear round jumping in Leicester. I thought it would be good to have a slightly less pressured enviroment to practice our jumping.
It was a really nice yard and all the people were so friendly. We arrived quite late so had to do the 2'3 round (Only planned on doing TEENY ones!) The organisers were really nice and put the plank jump nice & low (He has a plank fear!) and they took the big gate away as i didnt have the guts for it. We did 3 rounds and got a clear on the last. I was soooo pleased he was a star even with some pretty scary fillers.
Heres the video....
http://youtu.be/B_GUlKRjsVs
And a pic...note our Luuuurvley new KV browband
Feeling more confidant from our clear round experience i continued our jump practice at home. We were doing really well, OH found a road traffic plank to pratice with which seemed to be going really well. We were doing lots of fillers using blocks and all sorts. We even did a big spread using the plank, wish i had got it on video! D'oh
Our school has been out of use for a bit but finally it has been sorted. So all eager i got OH to set us up some grids in the school to do including the plank. He was being a right t*t, for some reason he hates that school and has always been a spooky monkey. There is also a killer calf stabled opposite the school which freaks him the hell out. Every time we passed it he was giraffe neck snorty prancy rushy which really got me wound up bearing in mind he passes this pissing cow every day. Any started jumping which was great then the third time round he did a right dirty stop at the second jumps which was the plank cue me getting face planted into the ground. Wasnt nice at all.
Before giving his mom a flying lesson...note the pony eating cow...
My jumping confidance really plumeted then, well with riding all together actually. So with all my anxiety issues going mad and then this i just felt like i shouldnt ride again. I felt like the most rubbish rider in the world and that i should give up horses all together. Never felt so low to be honest.
But since taking things slowly again ive felt much better, we have just being doing schooling practice, going on little hacks and doing pole work/tiny cross poles. So now am feeling positive and confidance is quickly returning again yay!
A soggy but very fun hack with the yard girlies...
We have some fun rides too...
This was from cannock chase, he enjoyed every minute and was SO strong!
Another rosette for your collection mom!
Then we went to Catton Hall for another ride, which had X country jumps in too. We did a fairly big log, a small tyre jump & a small table like jump. We also practiced in the water jump he was ace, he just cantered through it loving it! Again he was just so full of life and would of cantered the whole 15miles if i had let him!
Some piccies...
Ready to go...those tabards are not flattering at all...
Pro Pic...
After playing in the water jump...
Another rosette for the collection...
Last weekend me, OH and the dog went for a nice little hacket @ Cannock chase. We only went out for 45mins but it was really really nice. I was so proud of Finn & my dog they behaved SO well. My dog who used to try and attack horses a few years ago was a complete star, he was off the lead the whole time and just followed us. Finn who is very nervy of dogs didnt spook at him once even when he ran out the bushes infront and behind of him several times. Its helped my dog fear too, we will get there one day!
I still love this little horse more than ever, he may not be the most confidant but he is such a caring young man who i feel really looks after me despite my recent falls. I really think his niche is endurance/fun rides i also plan to do some dressage with him later on this year when his schooling is up to scratch. As for jumping well im just happy popping him over the odd cross pole for now.
Its a hard life isnt it Finn?
To be continued....i told you this would be long! :wink:
Not sure where to start, this might be a long one so bear with me :giggle: there will be pics so it will be worth it teehee!
So ill start with Finnley....
We have been out and about a fair amount in our lorry which i am really enjoying. I wish i'd done it sooner tbf its a great luxery to have. Although saying that i have been pushing us both too far since buying it. I did my usual 'Vicki' thing and decided i must 'make the most' of it incase it gets taken away from me (Insecure much :unsure
so i ignored OH's advice to take things s-l-o-w-l-y i just made sure we went out in it every weekend. I think this got a bit to much for me & Finn. My Anxiety problems spiralled out of control and i just felt so low & pressured. Finn was getting so used to me getting on and then having a good old razz around jumps or fun rides that all his schooling went out the window which has made me loose some confidance in myself & him. I ended up having to go to the doctors after having my anxiety got really bad, starting to have panic attacks etc the final straw was having a melt down at work and been taken to the docs by my OH's dad (we work together) she prescirbed me some tablets to help and ordered me to rest for a while. So i did nothing for 3 days and realised i had just been pushing myself way way way to far, doing things that i wasnt quite ready to do. 2 Weeks on and i do feel better, i know my mistakes and i AM going to just chill and take things slow in all ascpects of my life now. I dont think the tablets are helping at all though so i think im going to stop those, ive had constant upset stomach with them the past 2 weeks and havent been able to eat properly so am loosing weight rapidly. My size 6 jeans are no hanging off my hips which are pretuding out in a disgusting way.
Anyway thats enough doom & gloomy stuff i will get on with some of the lovely things ive done recently....
Not sure if all of you have seen this vid so i'll show it again....
We went to a SJ training evening in Derbyshire, that was great although falling off wasnt hehe... Knocked my confidance slightly but not too badly...
http://youtu.be/HVCNWROSu30
I didnt chuck my mom off....honest...
Next Jumping outing was a SJ evening comp which was a total disaster. It knocked my confidance and put me off going to any comps again tbh. It was named Mini/Diddy Showjumping, first class was 45cm so i though great that will be a nice little hieght to go round. Got there, warmed up feeling calm & confidant although warm up annoyed me because all the people on there 16h hunter types kept cantering into us. Then it was my turn, got into the ring and saw the hieght of the jumps! I was like WHAT!? they were a full up 2'6-'2'9 at least. I pretty much gave in even before we started to be honest, i just did not want to even try. We managed to do the first jump with 2 refusals and then another refusal at the second so was eliminated. I think one person managed to do a complete clear round, lots of young girls came off and ended up in tears they were just way to high! Then my friend wanted to do the very last class so we had to wait for 3hr 45mins (It was so dis organised it was untrue!) the class was supposed to be 2'6-2'9 and they ended up being HUGE like well over 3'3. My poor friend was the only pony competitor in the class and she ended up getting eliminated too. I got home @ 11.00pm and was not a happy bunny at all.
Looking Miserable lol!....
Next Day out was clear round jumping in Leicester. I thought it would be good to have a slightly less pressured enviroment to practice our jumping.
It was a really nice yard and all the people were so friendly. We arrived quite late so had to do the 2'3 round (Only planned on doing TEENY ones!) The organisers were really nice and put the plank jump nice & low (He has a plank fear!) and they took the big gate away as i didnt have the guts for it. We did 3 rounds and got a clear on the last. I was soooo pleased he was a star even with some pretty scary fillers.
Heres the video....
http://youtu.be/B_GUlKRjsVs
And a pic...note our Luuuurvley new KV browband
Feeling more confidant from our clear round experience i continued our jump practice at home. We were doing really well, OH found a road traffic plank to pratice with which seemed to be going really well. We were doing lots of fillers using blocks and all sorts. We even did a big spread using the plank, wish i had got it on video! D'oh
Our school has been out of use for a bit but finally it has been sorted. So all eager i got OH to set us up some grids in the school to do including the plank. He was being a right t*t, for some reason he hates that school and has always been a spooky monkey. There is also a killer calf stabled opposite the school which freaks him the hell out. Every time we passed it he was giraffe neck snorty prancy rushy which really got me wound up bearing in mind he passes this pissing cow every day. Any started jumping which was great then the third time round he did a right dirty stop at the second jumps which was the plank cue me getting face planted into the ground. Wasnt nice at all.
Before giving his mom a flying lesson...note the pony eating cow...
My jumping confidance really plumeted then, well with riding all together actually. So with all my anxiety issues going mad and then this i just felt like i shouldnt ride again. I felt like the most rubbish rider in the world and that i should give up horses all together. Never felt so low to be honest.
But since taking things slowly again ive felt much better, we have just being doing schooling practice, going on little hacks and doing pole work/tiny cross poles. So now am feeling positive and confidance is quickly returning again yay!
A soggy but very fun hack with the yard girlies...
We have some fun rides too...
This was from cannock chase, he enjoyed every minute and was SO strong!
Another rosette for your collection mom!
Then we went to Catton Hall for another ride, which had X country jumps in too. We did a fairly big log, a small tyre jump & a small table like jump. We also practiced in the water jump he was ace, he just cantered through it loving it! Again he was just so full of life and would of cantered the whole 15miles if i had let him!
Some piccies...
Ready to go...those tabards are not flattering at all...
Pro Pic...
After playing in the water jump...
Another rosette for the collection...
Last weekend me, OH and the dog went for a nice little hacket @ Cannock chase. We only went out for 45mins but it was really really nice. I was so proud of Finn & my dog they behaved SO well. My dog who used to try and attack horses a few years ago was a complete star, he was off the lead the whole time and just followed us. Finn who is very nervy of dogs didnt spook at him once even when he ran out the bushes infront and behind of him several times. Its helped my dog fear too, we will get there one day!
I still love this little horse more than ever, he may not be the most confidant but he is such a caring young man who i feel really looks after me despite my recent falls. I really think his niche is endurance/fun rides i also plan to do some dressage with him later on this year when his schooling is up to scratch. As for jumping well im just happy popping him over the odd cross pole for now.
Its a hard life isnt it Finn?
To be continued....i told you this would be long! :wink:
