Today I was doing the school run when two pretty blonde women cantered past me, on the verge by the A40, both riding and leading, probably exercising horses from one of the polo yards round here. Neither of them were wearing hats. I know that's dangerous and they were crazy etc but they both looked so happy and relaxed, like riding and leading on a busy main road was no big deal - I wish I felt like that about riding! I wish I could just hop on without a thousand 'what ifs' running through my brain! I don't want to be gung-ho or take pointless risks, I really feel like I am held back by a stupid lack of confidence.