I am having a major crisis of confidence at the moment. One of the reasons is that I find it very hard to ride in big groups. Last night there were about 20 of us doing games/jumping etc. Although the horses were on the whole well behaved, all were excited.
The problem is that I just couldn't do it! I felt so unsafe and scared that all the horses were going to go into a mass 'charge' around the arena. I ended up getting off in floods of tears, even though the horse I was riding didn't do anything wrong and was very well behaved. Everyone now thinks that I am very neurotic (even more than before!). I just hate being out of control and I hate horses following each other and ignoring my aids.
Does anyone else feel like this in groups? I have always felt vulnerable in big groups. This stems from a serious bolting incident some 16 years ago now! Every time I think that I have got over it something happens to put me back at square one.
The problem is that I just couldn't do it! I felt so unsafe and scared that all the horses were going to go into a mass 'charge' around the arena. I ended up getting off in floods of tears, even though the horse I was riding didn't do anything wrong and was very well behaved. Everyone now thinks that I am very neurotic (even more than before!). I just hate being out of control and I hate horses following each other and ignoring my aids.
Does anyone else feel like this in groups? I have always felt vulnerable in big groups. This stems from a serious bolting incident some 16 years ago now! Every time I think that I have got over it something happens to put me back at square one.