As I said in a earlier post I seem to of been battling with confidence issues the last few years, anyway yesterday ended up in tears to my ri. She was fantastic and said I'm being really hard on myself and need to think positively, for every one lesson that's not great focus on the 4 previous good ones. I know what she's saying but I need to get a grip! I feel totally frustrated at myself just as I feel I'm getting somewhere, horrible thoughts knock me back again. Yesterday whilst trotting round I thought about my cousin we lost in a xc accident in 1985, why is my mind doing this to me, its affecting me doing something I love and it feels its 2 steps forward and 2 back constantly. Am I alone or does anyone else have this problem. x