Question in the title really, I just can't get into 'Christmas mode' at all, am feeling really fed up, tearful and sick of it all today, I haven't even put my tree up yet and now I'm thinking what's the point. Bah humbug!
I was looking forward to it because of all the hard work with exams - I couldn't get excited until after they were done on the 11th dec. No sooner than I was out the exams, my mum called to tell me that they weren't doing Christmas this year and I could come round if I wanted but they weren't doing presents or anything. It just reminds me all too acutely, of how single I am, as that pretty much means I can't do Christmas either. My sister is celebrating as she has a family and yes I could go there but I have been far too absent from Flipo this year and don't want to rely on fieldmate anymore to feed so that I can go visiting, so I'm at home and I'd love to get all excited but what's the point. I'll get two presents this year, one from my sister and one from NR Secret Santa. I need a man lol (although I all I need a man for is one day a year, I probably don't need one all that much hehe!)
I was all xmassy had the tree up, room decorated, cakes made, even a panetone, then dad landed in hospital so they aren't coming. I cancelled most of the food I had ordered from the butcher as don't need it, and have no idea what we are doing on xmas day, whether we are at home, visiting hospital, visiting them in their own house
we went up yesterday, it is 100 miles, 2 hours each way, got caught in hailstones, then snow on the way back. not fun.
I was all xmassy had the tree up, room decorated, cakes made, even a panetone, then dad landed in hospital so they aren't coming. I cancelled most of the food I had ordered from the butcher as don't need it, and have no idea what we are doing on xmas day, whether we are at home, visiting hospital, visiting them in their own house
we went up yesterday, it is 100 miles, 2 hours each way, got caught in hailstones, then snow on the way back. not fun.