Today I sat in a snow covered field full of horses, on a pile of hay and cried :frown:
Moments before I had trogged through the field with buckets of feed rushing to put Ambers food down before she chased the others off theirs when I fell on my face in the snow onto buckets and injured my wrist, right in front of a horse who would have trampled me.
I am not sure how much more I can take to be honest, It all just feels so stressful and I'm not enjoying it anymore. I have ridden once since the end of October and I'm not really that interested anyway. I seem to be doing all the work with the horses, my mum has helped me put the haylage out twice. My asthma is getting worse from the haylage and the cold which makes everything so much harder.
I love horses but it's got to the point where I am seriously considering finding new homes for some of them (although with Maddie and Amber it is more likely I will have to have them PTS) . I really hoped moving house and having the horses at home would make everything better, we were just getting excited about it and thinking we may be moving in a few months and now it looks like it might not happen :frown:
Moments before I had trogged through the field with buckets of feed rushing to put Ambers food down before she chased the others off theirs when I fell on my face in the snow onto buckets and injured my wrist, right in front of a horse who would have trampled me.
I am not sure how much more I can take to be honest, It all just feels so stressful and I'm not enjoying it anymore. I have ridden once since the end of October and I'm not really that interested anyway. I seem to be doing all the work with the horses, my mum has helped me put the haylage out twice. My asthma is getting worse from the haylage and the cold which makes everything so much harder.
I love horses but it's got to the point where I am seriously considering finding new homes for some of them (although with Maddie and Amber it is more likely I will have to have them PTS) . I really hoped moving house and having the horses at home would make everything better, we were just getting excited about it and thinking we may be moving in a few months and now it looks like it might not happen :frown: